Long Time, No See

“Life does not accommodate you, it shatters you. It is meant to, and it couldn't do it better. Every seed destroys its container or else there would be no fruition.”

It has been exactly one month since my last entry... I don't even know why it took me that long to write. It's not that I have been too busy, it's also not because I have nothing to share... Maybe it's just because I used to write about feelings, and now is the time for me to let reality set in and remind me of all that's needed to be done. My mind does not deal well with putting too much feelings on the line at the moment, so no entry has been written, and I hope you understand. I have been wanting to write down what all I had going on for a while, but these days words seem to just slip out of my mind very quickly.

So here it is. May not be the best blog entry ever, but it certainly gives a little updates about my current life... Once I get my feelings back (as bad as it sounds) , more entries are yet to come. :)

I am trying to not let myself be defeated by the stress and discouragements these days. A few not-too-good news came along the way together with everything else, so life is getting a little frustrating, especially at this moment in time when the reality of me graduating has finally kicked in. I'm actually getting more and more worried about what will happen. Started the job-searching process, but because of my status and many other things, it's not been going to well. However, I have a few more months... if I keep looking, hopefully good things will happen. Optimisms has always been my way of getting through the toughest times, simply because giving up is not an option for me, in this situation or in any other. I have come this far, I have to try to make my dreams come true... ideally speaking, that is.

But that's enough of complaining... Life is here for me to enjoy. I am sure things will work out the way they were meant to, I just have to give it my all, and see what life takes me, I guess...

It's funny how I always complained about how busy I was, and now, when I am fairly free, I try my best to find things to do in order to stay as busy as I can. I guess because this type of "business" is what I can deal with: school and work are still the same, a little less on the school part, but I started spending more time at the gym, catching up with old friends, making new ones, getting to know some better than others, and enjoying my life... or trying to, at least.

The pressure is definitely on. I'm afraid that if I stopped trying even for just a little bit, I will be taken over by whatever this is... I'm not sure exactly what I truly need at the moment, but I'm sure I will soon find out. Meanwhile, besides family and friends, time is all I have left, even if it's a lot or just a little... Gotta make the most out of everything either way...

“I could not, at any age, be content to take my place by the fireside and simply look on. Life was meant to be lived. Curiousity must be kept alive. One must never, for whatever reason, turn his back on life.”

                                            ~ Elanor Roosevelt