Sunday, January 23, 2011

."If I Die Young".




“Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever...”
                                                                         ~ Isak Dinesen


I have always thought blogging was putting thoughts and feelings down in writing, as simple as that sounds. Surprisingly I am experiencing the "lost of words" issue right now: so many things on my mind, but they all just scramble around and I cannot get anything out to put into a good entry.


If I had learn anything, that would be it takes much more than just thoughts itself to actually put everything into words. However, that's not what this entry is about.





Frankly speaking, I have been struggling to find out my life's enjoyments and directions. I have been trying out many new things to find out what it is that I want out of life, and even though I cannot say I have reached the final destination, I have added many more to my list of things that can make me truly happy. As of right now, at this stage of my life, I am living life to the fullest, so that in years to come, I will not have to look back and regret about anything.


So here goes the list:


- Family: This is pretty obvious. I have talked about how I love my family in so many entries, I don't think I need to say it again. All I want to remind myself is that "without my family, I am NOTHING."


- Friends: "Our friends define who we are." This is truly the time for me to realize the importance of friendship and the companies of wonderful people around me. I appreciate each and everyone of them so much, I can't even express it. I cannot be closed to everyone, but the ones I am closer to, are the best any one could ask for. They never seize to put a smile on my face. These days, no matter how busy I am, I always have to make time to get together with friends, both old and new, to simply surround myself with the people I love. Just like family, I have talked about the importance of friendship in my life way too many times before, so if you want to know how much I value them, please read my previous entries. :)


- Food: I have also come to realize that while it is hard for us to rely on other people, that other people can hurt us in many ways, and that we cannot just leave one person and come to the other just like that; we can do everything with food. Yes. Food. We can try out many types of food. Good food makes us satisfied and happy, and we can always eat it again and again. Bad food, we try once then never again, we move on to the next and find other happiness in a matter of minutes. Food can never disappoint us too much, but it certainly can bring us the certain happiness we need, and more than anything, it helps us survive. If you know me and have me as a friend on Facebook, you must have seen my foodie pictures from time to time. I truly enjoy eating and cooking. Finding new restaurants, coming back to the favorites ones, looking for new recipes, re-cooking the old ones... have been a few of my daily/weekly routines, and I'm absolutely enjoying it, even though it hurts my "pocket" a little.


- Fitness: This one links to the previous one. Because of my love for food and eating, fitness is the next must-do on my list. It always helps to feel good about ourselves. That doesn't mean we have to be unhappy about the way we look right now, but it certainly would be better if we look good and feel good at the same time. :) These days, I am at the Wellness Center almost all the working days (a.k.a. Mondays through Friday). If not for the usual Yoga classes, then it would be for Zumba, or a little jogging here and there and a few abdominal works. Doing this helps me kills the extra time I have, while making me feel better about myself. A stone kills two birds, that is.


- Feelings: A friend just recently told me "People don't have feelings anymore, they have to be able to see something out of the situation to do it, and hurting is a must-stay-away thing. Everyone's guard is up, and all we can feel is awkwardness..." I personally agree. Not everyone is turning into an emotionless-monster, but the thought of becoming one is slowly taking over. I always complain about how big of an emotional roller-coaster I have been on, without appreciating the fact that I can still feel. It doesn't matter if it's hurt of happiness I feel, I should be thankful I am not emotionless... Therefore, unlike other people who are trying to put their feelings aside or hide them, I am proud of what I can feel, and I express it because doing so makes me happy.


- Laughter: When we smile, it can be because of true happiness, or it can just be because we're trying to hide the pain... Laughing, on the other hand, invokes true feelings of happiness and joy, and bring colorful sights to our lives. It is one of the most healthy things we, humans, can do to ourselves. After all the pain and hurts, I now can say I understand more the meaning of laughters. Nowadays, when I laugh, I try to do it as loudly and freely as I can without making other people think I am crazy. "Go big or go home", right? :)


- Love: Love is one of the very few free things we can give away, then why not do so? Give, and do not ask for anything in return... someday what comes back to you will be much greater than anything you have imagined.


- Hope: I call myself a pretty "hopeful" person, but not the one who day-dreams about unrealistic things, but the one who dreams about reachable things and use them to make life better. I have to admit that these "hopeful" thoughts of mine have brought me to the ground many times, but as long as I have something to live for, I know I will be happy. I am now not a total "hopeless", but I am not longer a big "hopeful"... I am right where I need to be.


I have come to realize that I do have a limited time on this Earth and I have no way of knowing what will happen the minute after this moment. Therefore, if I don't live my life enjoying the little things that truly make me happy, I am wasting the time I don't have. I want to live life so that "If I Die Young", I can say that "I've had just enough time", and that the life I was given was not wasted. 


I am still working on perfecting this list, but as of right now, these things are what keep me moving forward. 


What about you? What brings you true happiness?


“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”
                                         ~ Steve Jobs



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